Some reflected thoughts!

I Admire Brooke, her Talent and Beauty, and I Love and Adore her Soul.
She touches me in the deepest of my heart, places I never knew that existed till I could see and feel my Angel for the first time. It's so much!!

People I know say I'm good, but I've done or said many stupidities here.
Always I want to do my best, and I fail. I was trying to be a gentleman, and I finished as a lost portion of air. ( )
When I fly on Love wings, there's only one place I'm trying to catch in my mind, and it clearly begins on the earth.
Somewhere. Where? Ah, ah, somewhere!
I am overprotective, I know and hope nothing worse. It's that so much tenderness mixed with the distance, for so long...
Wow, it's Hard!!

Tonight, it felt so good to find some games to play in the net, just watching videos. It put my mind out of my naturally serious and dramatic thinking, for a while!
Seriously , it was very good to me. Excitation of my spirit found a good way to its exit, not agressivity, just playing and answering. Improving fast!
Funny or Die always finds my "good point", it's a good PacK!
Competition is always welcome!

I'm going to do my work right now. It gonna be so Easy with You as this intensity of Pure Light in my heart!!
Do not worry for me, because I Breathe and stay relaxed, I'm moving with peace in my soul. That's what I Want for You, All for You!!


PS: Three minutes after the last post, and I still Love You!!

I don't know, but maybe I have to think about something that I should do. Go to America to see You performing on the stage. I think I will have to do it, if You let me!!
That's what I'm understanding and Feeling!! I Always Love You, my Lady!!

No, I think this is Time for stay Loving Here. I will do it, so Happy and Peace!!
I Adore You!!

Hello! How beautiful photos on the net today, I will post! Wow, Amazing and Lovely Beautiful Brooke!

It's saturday. Yesterday it snowed here. Yes, somebody listened to my words about heat excesses
Some songs,

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JuemBl_9ma4 (making the substantive means, from recent memories about me: - , I did not remember code's number of this icon- and now I look at them thinking that all happens for something; and I don't Smile, sometimes I because I think it's a funny miss-understanding because of normal problems from the living; I don't remember anything about all this now. Wow!!)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MbXWrmQW-OE&ob=av2nm

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Lz3sf-SY6M8&feature=fvst

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fz9YA7WXSRI

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jx6tlCJ0xYg


How difficult is coming back to innocence, when so many things around are trying to put you on the edge of living. It's difficult, but it's a personal mission I won't let go. It means too much, more than surviving. It's my soul and my Love!
I think the whole world could go much further from this, to some much better place. It's a matter of will, love, heart and time.
I've changed. I've changed my way to face sadness moments we all have, and I've changed my way to hope, and I've even made better my way to express Love.
All that's true, and it gives me tons of strenght and selfconfidence. We can change, you see, and Feel!
When we are feeling lonely we must think that as long as there's someone in this world that love us, just the way we are, we're never lonely.
And if dark moments come, sometime, we have to be proud enough to understand we are all unique. The fruit of millions and millions years of Evolution, for something: to Live! We are Precious and Beautiful pieces of Nature! From the Naturalistic concept to the Sacred conception about the whole Mankind. I Believe! Beauty of Love is the only Secret!
And We Alll have to Love ourselves, no matter what. If We always resist, never surrender, good times will come, one day or another. I know.
I Love You All, and I'm Feeling your Love!

I've been running and watching some TV series. I liked them!
I am a little tired, but wanted to come for a while, to make my head visible
I've been expending some adrenaline, good!
I have to admit I feel a little guilty sometimes for coming and saying all I say. I know most of people does want to help and to listen, someway, but those things I've said in the past... Worries and too much intense feelings for Brooke...
Well, I'm just telling the truth.
Being selfish, it's been great to me. I really hope I've done something good, sometime.
I've learnt a lot of things, about people and about me. Psicology and Sociology, and some Showbusiness too
But that's nothing compared to have sent Brooke my Love
Today, I said all for good. I am doing the same for a pretty time. But I've been so bad before that...
I'm truly coming for Good and for Love!!

My instinct ("my name is...XX. XX" ) tells me that I can go on Here. I'm not sure about all things, but I have to take this little risk.
It's so important to me, to Love You every and every day in life. In the uncertain sea of the net (a little afraid because my past mistakes), virtual living, I will find and listen to You!!
As I'm Always doing, my Angel, the only Woman for my eyes and my Heart; I'm posting some videos, trying to make some funny and nice mix

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AepyGm9Me6w

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1Utuh5bucLI

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k0wEyvrrcOs

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GUSr9ocAeJo&ob=av2el




https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qHqDpUpbpJI (Great, really great humor performers; and appears some people called Tarzan, Rodríguez... )
One day, I've heart, some journalist asked to José Luis Coll if it was true he was dating one very well known woman from international showbusiness, top-model (obviously, so far from reality), and he said: "No te digo ni que sí ni que no".
Well, he was joking, but didn't think about future and Special Feelings taken from Destiny.
Even my father, in the End could know. And he liked it so much!!
Hope You All liked it and had some fun with all this videos, my Beloved Friends!

Well, I've been feeling a little excited and nervous, and had to take yesterday's night to start being more calmed.
Please, forget all I said yesterday's morning. I just had to say it, to tell the truth. But now it's a different moment. I Swear!!
I'll have to put another different fake dressing on, ant's one. I'll do!
I've been thinking a lot. And if I could not talk to her, another time. And if I could talk to her...
It's a "little" exciting and scaring at the same time. To handle it, I've been practising some kind of yoga of my own. And some exercise, and goog thinking.
I Love You, I just had a weakness moment for all things you know.
Without You in this world, I would have never find the real meaning of illusion, Hope, Happiness, Freedom and Love!!
All we've had highs and lows, but the only certain and most important thing, from me now, is that You Blessed my life, Forever!!
You made be a better person, how much more, and made I wanted to be GOOD everyday of my life. For that I feel so bad when I think I've been wrong with Friends!
I Adore You, and your Inspiration is guiding me now!!
I would not leave for One million lifes in Heaven, can't You see!!
There's only You in my Life and my Dreams!! And All of You I Love!

I'm not asking for a conversation, if You don't like it. I know it would not be for something about me. I could understand.
I'd never try to bring sad situations or problems there.
All, I will understand!!
Never worry for anything!!


PS: I don't like very much to admit I should wait some time to come back, because of some accountancy problems, you know; and, even more motivated for this, I'm going to enjoy all blessing moments at Feinsteins!!

After my posts, I'm going to work out here. I admit I've got my rhythm a little down. But I've been dancing in the dark for so long time that a couple of days more can not do so bad to me. Improving!!
And, if I finally put my biorhythms up on the top, I may even find a job as a "dawn-model" . Who knows!!
I need some "tough", not more than the rest, videos to make my composition today. Uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuup!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sirS1zM1J6E&feature=fvst

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xF7OfmNcQqE

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j8tADtZ8NP8

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dz9Ukp38YS8

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ci5D5r6ZjXA

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9iteRKvRKFA&feature=fvw

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GnZuMfIP6UU

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TCeD_6Y3GQc

All not good vibrations I'm sublimating from the songs in my head. Before, I used this sensations to feel some kind of weird power inside of me. Now, I just use all to recreate something good, as way that goes up and high to the best I can think and Feel!
It's Love, I've found inside of me. I will do anything for Love, for Better!!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3of2F1QXtKo

Nothing, nothing in this Universe or any other possible one, could take me out of this Love for You.
I Adore You!! How is it possible to Live Feeling like this; it's too much Beauty. And I've been Blessed in this life!! The only thing I want is Your Happiness, nothing about me, and I only Feel Alive when I see it, like Today. Thank You for Peace on a Beautiful day like this, never as much as You. Angels Exist, and they have a Beautiful and Strong Woman's Soul, yours! I Love You!!
You see, and I Promise it's true, for one time I did not pay attention on the time, and it's beyond 33. It's Heaven, my Love!!

Trying for some inspiration. I'm Feeling so well that I wanted to try one more time. I Love You, and it's the only good thing I can do now. The other ones... But I need to do something!!


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dQv7vGIdKhU

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J2sG8nvoshg

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=44_qWFAdjqQ

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=plKhZhZCQHg&feature=related (Michael Laudrup, great football player from Denamark, Mallorca's, my team, coach today)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oGf2N-ahxXE

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DAQ4sJZ5IsU

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3UVKeaxbz8k ("coming from Heaven...")

There's Always a place for Hope, Illusion and Faith. Then we may find Goodness and Love; I'm Feeling so much for You, my Beloved Brooke!!
These Pure Feelings and Strongest Passion and Unselfish Friendship are the Same in me!! I Love You beyond all Spiritual Places my own mind has ever touched in my life!!

And now the funny thing:
Don't worry, I never talked like this at school, at home or anywhere.
But now I'm doing it, because You are with me!!


PS: And my muscles do not matter at all to me now; well, or almost. You know...!

Hola. Este Amor se merece que diga la verdad antes de hacer nada más.
Lo que yo he dado en llamar "la prueba del 9 multiplicada por 3", con la inestimable colaboración aritmética del bueno de Aidan Quinn. YA OLVIDADA
Me dolió. El orgullo. Con todo lo que tenía pasado de tantos años...
Luego me dio todavía más rabia haber demostrado que me doliera.
Y me seguía doliendo y más rabia me daba. Era un círculo "vicioso"
Sentía un mezcla de confusión entre sentirme traicionado y culpable por haber hecho algo de lo que no era consciente.
Y más rabia por la incerteza añadida. Y por no saber qué hacer. Todo el tiempo.
Y más por mi ineptitud en todo este tinglado. Mucha más.
Y las competiciones... OLVIDADO
Pero con el tiempo todo ha llegado a un lugar de Paz.
Tenía que decirlo. Era por Honor, pero no por mí ni por la gente y amigos, sino por Brooke. Ella se merece que lo diga aquí.
Y ya está dicho todo.
Y olvidado. Tal vez haya adquirido cierta sensibilidad añadida en este tema. Nada más.
Me ha servido para experimentar y conocer más sobre mí mismo y sobre todo en general.
Me ha enriquecido como persona.
Tengo este carácter. Demasiado orgulloso, demasiado vulnerable en todo lo tocante a mi ego en general (y en estos temas muy en particular; DE MACHO, como digo a veces ), y demasiado temperamental. Un poco vanidoso, incapaz de eludir los retos, repleto de inquietudes, valiente, de probada lealtad, fuerte, bello, con nervios de acero, honesto... Y todo eso. En serio, olvidado
BROOKE!!

Well, I never know anything for sure. Never. From the very first moment I came to the Brookenook. Yesterday opened, today closed again (remembering crazy Nick...).
And what I've said yestarday, it seems was no good.
It's impossible to be Friends. I understand it.
I Love, but there're and there have been too many things.
I've been asking money, as the last time when I went to LA, to banks, but I think I should not go to America again.
I'm sure I am disturbing Brooke. I know it, and there She will need tons of concentration, not tons of craziness.
It had to be so different All!! It hurts, but I'm still keeping tall, as I've been for all my life.
Anyway, my Eternally Beloved Brooke, till the end of time, I'm at your feet for anything. There is time for All, even for think twice about all I've just said.
I've been put behind a public glass. So, I have no other way to talk to You.
If it can work for something, I'm not angry and only wish the Best for You!!

OK, I had to think and I've just done.
Sorry me my Sweet Brooke, for being so rough when I try to be Good. I Try!
I Love You more than ever in my whole life!!
You're my Angel, and to just think in any bad thing from me... Ufff, I'm going mad with myself again. Please, I will be OK as long You are. Yesterday's I just wanted to close a crazy-funny book, with the truth. For YOU!! I will Go, I will Go!! I Adore YOU, and do not ask for anything but seein You on the stage, A DREAM!! We have our own way for comunication, not everybody can tell the same!!

Hey, do not worry, I am under control. Let me think... More than 1/4 a Century practising...
Conclusion: Everything's gonna be honestly OK!! I was just expressing my feelings Free. I've finally learnt to breathe
I just wanted to bring You the True Love I Feel for You and, at the same time, to show You how much I've learnt to stay calm. When there's Love, we just want the Better and the Best for those whom we Love, and with that Will we can do everything.
We can even go beyond slavery created by our senses. I am doing!!
Peace, Love, Happiness, Health and Inspiration! That's All I want, and it's All FOR You!!


PS: In any case, I know well You're not afraid of me at all!

I Always wanted to be the Best, for You (CLASS)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=43sYSMHYf-Q


But when I see this as Real

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZvuxdoFnj-Q&feature=fvsr


I would not even mind to be the Best... inspiration for this song

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RPto8LjknxE
You have to actually admit it's Sincere, and funny!!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8x9rtEHtubI ; I SWEAR!!

Hello! I'm not trying to be like Peter Graves in "Aterriza como puedas", when he asks the boy if he has ever been in a turkish prison, but You may admit that sometimes it seems like I had eyes on the scruff of my neck I'm talking about, you know, those guys...
I've been making some exercise. I admit my AAAS will never be the same again, but my body still remember the whole alphabet!!
If I want to dance with wolves, I've got to be in shape!
Seriously, from the Radio , I am so excited for coming to see You again. Where are my letters now!!

I'm flying so high that I have not bought tickets yet. Petition in english by the phone... LOL
I'll do, tomorrow in your morning. And we'll also fill the ESTA, just check it.
It's All Happiness inside of me now.
How can You Exist! How can You Exist!
I've just been trying to do what I thought it was right. Just searching for the Good things!!
To see You, to touch You, it feels like I could die for Love with You.
Down to earth, it will be the most Beautiful one among All Possible Beauties in this World!!
You give me the air that I breathe, and this comes directly from Paradise of Love.
I'm touching my nose now, to be sure this is for real.
I've longing for Your Love so long time, and You've suddenly become REAL in my thinking about Reality.
This is a Miracle to me, I don't want to wake up. Never!!
You could not imagine how many hours, days, years, all the time I've been thinking about You; in all possible ways, for good love, beside me.
We've visited so many places together. On the Earth, over the rainbow, beyond the sky.
All imaginable ways, places and kisses of Love, I've shared with You for my lifetime.
I'm going to be with You, with You!!
I Adore You, I only Live for You, I am with You. All is coming back, all good things from my memories of You.
I Love You!!

I didn't use to like reality, because you were not in it, and for that I only wanted to search for some shelter out of raining thoughts and broken passion. I lived as I could, and I admit it could have been worse. I am not so bad at living, after all.
But I've actually learnt to enjoy Real Life. It scares me, this like extended mix of Dreams and Reality together. But it attracts me, more than a magnet made with the electromagnetic energy of all stars in the sky.
When I think about You, naked and without all conditions I've lived on time, it's so Beautiful, so Beautiful that catches my breath, and I can't help but longing your embrace, so hard. So tremendously hard. I can not think. In Peace, I just need your embrace!!
ps: I've been searching for songs. Not all I watch means something (I haven't watched all movies and videos yet! LOL)

It's just a Feelings Story, not about facts. What I felt at first time, what I thought I was seeing (about her Love), and what I felt Later. And the way till what I'm feeling today!!


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1Cw1ng75KP0

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aSMtvvLfLms

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gwrTrHswgj8

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kSXx7-EceBA

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mGGpfpXcnGs

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2RjqKXhtxoY (please, you may change last picture by mine, if you don't mind, that was the intention for romantic playing -not playing, FEELING!!)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eJAo6_ASyx0&feature=fvst

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S7mZ5Y6OuH0 (not exactly about phones, LOL, JUST ABOUT FEELINGS, "She is the One", and will be my One Forever!!)

PS: I'm a new man, because of your Love!!

Maybe You're angry with me again, mabe trying to be good and funny I made something wrong.
Please, just remember that I've been Loving You for so long time, and that I can not be so bad person ( ). I am not that bad!


Ok, I am bad!!
I Love You, it's my blood what runs through these mails!!
But All I ever wanted was your Peace, for the most sacred I Swear. To make You to know about me, my Love, and your Happiness and Peace. I am nobody, just Your FRIEND!!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X2Pdt5mleO4&feature=feedlik

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jbdPUiih020

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PB57nBTYaKQ

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bZTS9H-l5qQ

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BFBnotAdsQw

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GLu6-J18x1k&feature=fvsr

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AwdJWQ2ddzA&feature=fvsr



It's just a Drama of my very private own!!
I just need to Always know that You are with me, just with me!! It's selfish, but I Love You too much to Live alone again. Just to hold You for a while, as FRIENDS, and be "on line" with You for the rest of our lifes.
That isn't too much!!
I Love You with all my heart, the way I always knew I could Love You. Two lifes, only One Heart, Forever, whatever it may be!!
Dramatic, but True!!