Philosophers

Hi!

Really Nice Videos and Pictures!
This virtuality is feeling well, like a second life [and it's FUNDAMENTAL to be Able Always to see the Difference between this and the Real one, like Literature, by instance] away from the daily, local and global problems.  Though about these ones all, I think it's important to be assuming things like Maverick does in Top Gun   after workmate Gus passes away, I mean, going through the periods of sadness/guilty/deception... and overreach them all, less or more as any other one coming back to the joy of living, work, responsability...
Sometimes, I feel I'd have adored to have been a very trained boxer  (though I prefer to be a philosopher).  I think I'd have done something very great, and it gets corresponding efforts on good ways to the interiorized feeling of the late arguments.  But well, we're are all little heroes.
And We all can find inspirational places on many ways.
All the Dualities and multiplicities I'm explaining on my essay (Never reaching All existing, from my humanity) are key for Understanding what I say (too genuine and too genius   -original-, so so many times missunderstood).
The extremes, dogmatism, selfish living, hate, violence, harm, hunger, poverty, unjustice, lost, fear... All these things do Need a Real Mix of Rocky and Nietzsche!    
This week starting in real (put that tie inside of the book! ), quite focused but happy.
Well, greetings!
and Good Wishing True!


ps: edited the text for the People who could be reading it.  I'd Like to share All of my essay on the internet, but to me, even more important than the money (just for my Family, True; though I think money will only be able to me by improving my administrative category, I have to Admit; doctorating and more official studies will really help) it's the Self-Respect for my Creation as an Original Author (Recognizing copyrights and so).  
Well, the fact hating critics do have to make the job of finding out the book before critizising it badly (Not All I'm talking about) is Very Inspirational too (this was for finishing the post on some , with some little fundament of reality though, but not very much cause it is not so key: we all need some social aprovement, but I've Got what I Need even just today, from my Self-Consciousness, and also some Knowledge Upon the World).

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How really Nice, Sexy and Beautiful Videos and Pictures! (no more comments
About the internet (from the listening to my cell I think Only the Lord can save me), the other day in "Cuarto Milenio" Iker talked about how boys and girls around 12 or even less can push a key of computer and achieve any kind of image... Shouldn't be this Regulated? Why, so many sides of the social living are, for the safety of the young, of the old..., and this is Still (it's been a pretty couple of years the Internet is working) Wild? I've got a porn channel on my TV choice, but this is Needing a Security Code. Normal. Good. And the pornography is Not the only thing little people under 12 or around should not see, as long as violence, dramatic situations, pain... are Probably even worse to their psyche, to any psyche.
It's a Real Source for Debate, Hopefully considered on some of the next years, finally.
Yesterday was Great for "crying" out, mainly in the inside that I'm Not sharing, some things and some broken dreams of the past. Thank you!
Ah, and Pleae, tell Jonah Hill that he's actually Looking Tremendous, though the weight losing feels much better to health and to aesthetics of the whole body when it's more gradual and progressive, rather than too fast. Just a helping opinion, said very conscious ways about the real chance for being told: you know what you can do with your opinion... Good Spirits!
Really Focused. Today editing logics, 8.2. This last chapter I'm taking even more delicate terms, to what's related to the explanation and ot its quality. It's the key, the most personal and definitive one of the essay.
Greetings Good and Best Wishing!
And really Kind hug to Brooke

Hi!

Nice Pictures and Videos!
"Powerless"... Looks Nice.
Yesterday I did not even go for a second to the outside, excepting for going to the parked car. I finished quite , but I think it's OK.
The resting night has been very blessing, so here we go.
Greetings and Best Wishing!
See...!


ps: for control of "older than 18" there could be a software connected to the computer camera (this is actually used as we all know) which role would be comproving the age of the user; and for saying, at the very least, it's OK, less or more 18.

Obviously, the investigation related to the genetic constitutions (not taking a too large part of the essay) will have to consider very much the epigenetic development (social, educational and factic lifes of the people), which is an area for the study that's growing for each minute; and, obviously, the complexity of all this stuff, which means, at last and in the bottom of the reflection, there's always a space for the freedom and the will of the people for the improvement, less or more guided.
From this perspective, I'll be considering the genetics as a predisposition, not as a "condemn".

Hi!

On the calmy ways, not feeling very "magical" ( ) but not on the worst of moods possible, really. Among many other things, this is consequence of the finishing of essay after these last 3 years, and a life. It's almost like PPD or something
When I said it's the "first" time I see "GOODNESS CLEAR", I was expressing my asperger difficulties and also, the reality that this time was 200% Heavenly Motivated (irony also 200% Good!) and Done
For some respectful expressing to Brooke, this Video-dialoguing-in progress, childish but meaning well.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BXuMjbRLNEc

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jIidro0M8g4

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w5Ct51knXZs
Unforgettable Feelings!

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Very Beautiful Pictures All Around!
I Love You, Brooke. And I also Admire You.
Yesterday was a tough day in Spain, Catalonia. I'm not directly blaming the Police People, but I think the charges and beating were not justified, have to say. Unnecessary, for the most of situations. And, Politically, it's just making the situation harder to all.
I Hope the next days are good to Politicians to see the ones whose bodies are receiving "all" are the "ordinary" People in the streets; and let their politic ideals on some stand by for the safety and peace of all.
Negociating is Possible. If it's not with this Government, with the One coming after it. But it's Possible, and Rendible, and Sure. The last "Estatut d'Autonomia" failing in the Constitutional Court does not mean this is happening always. There're many People Understanding the Need of Catalonia for some politic and cultural recognizement, specific. But it Needs some time (and it's not about historic honors for one or another person, it's about the Community Rights), and it Needs to not only keep focused in separational sources: the type of sentences like "you white, me black, and that's all" should be an Overreached Reality (Political, Cultural, Global), in this XXI Century and after All the things History Taught to us All.
To a society which is almost "fifty-fifty", Arrimadas, Iceta, Coscubiela... are Catalonian Politicians wih Sensitivity, Reason and Caring Enough to Drive the People to some real solutions. On time, it's not for tomorrow or the next week. And it's not about just one time, it's about the Living Together, where all have the right to give and take at once.
Another thing. "Equidistance" in opinion is actually a negative value that has become like a new way to define "new" (not new at all) realities. I understand, cause it looks like somebody trying to win the most from the largest number of people and situations. But this is a fake. Reality and History Prove this is not a profit situation at all.
Also, it's a problem to confuse interested equidistance and "non unconditioned affection" to any group of people, for reasons like the real wishes for getting fixed in some point close to the objective position, good enough to be able to bring some "advice" to the whole community. It's a Free Decission, in any case; and it depends on the Ideals, Values and Preferences of each Person.
I'll not be able to stay for Always here, but as long as I am for some time, I just Try to bring a little grain of help.


ps: Good and Gentle Loving kiss&hug to Brooke!

Hi!

Nice Pictures and Videos!
Feeling really Sorry for last tragic events in Las Vegas. Rest in Peace. Get Recovered Soon.
Tom Petty was and will be Tremendous.
Families.
God Bless.



Radicalism and the fixing of labels that drive to any kind of social exclusion is a problem as old as human, almost.
It seems there's a genetic need for determining very closed spaces of identity, at any possible level. It's related to the dynamic of groups association that goes parallel to the groups mutual exclusion. A matter of security, seems to be the anthropologic cause for it.
But this worked well, evolutive terms, when we were in the caverns (I mean, when we appeared as Homo Sapiens -and before); but today it should just be a matter of gradual social and cultural affinities, good for the existential development of the people by the normal bonds of socialization and daily mutual affection among human beings (scientistis with scientists, sportpeople with sportpeople...). There's no much sense in stronger exclusions, in this "city" that has become the world; when it's just a matter of cultural affinities (obviously, no when we're talking about killers and so, that do have to be separated for the safe of others, and punished -specially for disuading any others from doing the same- and reformed -though this last point...).
To insist and insist in drawing thick lines of social and political separation, in this XXI, from the point the society is getting more and more complex, and this is cause people has been much empowered by the Constitutions (legal terms) and by the Internet (factic terms), and cause each human is different though at once do need to find "coequippiers"/teammates; that insisting can only bring to an infinite progression of fractures inside of other fractures (you can see the streams of hate in the internet, by instance).
If we don't make simmilar the empowering of the individuals for their free expression and the tolerance and the education about these conditions (and many more, of course: the basic need of the community, the limits of human mind and heart, the specific and realist history of the communities...), we will be having many problems; today and in the future. Neverending hard confrontations may be coming.
The Responsability is for All, though today in Spain there're some Politicians that should Notice this all, for the Healthy, Peace and True Freedom of All, in each simple one community of the country. These are the Real Binding things.

Looked really Good, the working atmosphere before the camera in that TV Program. It's Nice to see it, next to also See Very Beautiful Pictures. Those things are Alway Key!
God Bless!


ps: and remember, always sending a Gentle Loving kiss&hug on the distance to you (both on little initial letters is Fair -to me at the very least), Brooke, Best Wishing True!

done. I sent the essay. The professor congratulated me and told me he thinks it's a big job, inner terms coherent and good. Wow, this was like a first social breathing, philosophic terms! So Welcome!
The next things I'm writing (doctorate and next essays) I'll be doing in some disconnected computer (honest fear from viruses), by a software compatible. Also, first I'll get all clear on mind and paper, and only after it I'll write on the computer. i have played the role of the freshman, that's happening to everybody. But I'm Honestly Happy for the Theoric Results, and by now, the "Practic" ones are really Good too!
Honestly, it's a Good Job! I think it could bring some social help. Hearted terms, I say it.
And now I Do Need a little long Rest like breathing!


Very Beautiful Red Dress and SportWearing too, Wow!
I Actually See the Good Wishing to me, Truly and Honestly
And Thanks to All the other People Involved in the new streams!
Goodness. And Greetings!
Brooke is such a Bright Woman; and I Always Love her.
Taking the chance for sending a Loving and Kindly Gentle kiss&hug!

The persons behind wall you sent, and some others, did inconstitucional thing. All agreed with them are Not demócratas for real to me. I Know.
But Well, cest la vie.
Physically aware for deffending my Familia from these, It became Normal.
Consequences of this cant be Goodness, but im so Calmy Focused in Family and Career.
Maybe Lleonard is publishing.
Wishing.
God Bless, Goodness!

Hi!

From some football-match.  Good for the mood.
Trying to Rest.
In the cell, the viruses have fixed youtube as main page.  And today they have put a video "salvar o matar"... Craziness around, virtual and Unfortunetely some not that much, is getting increased, Trying to get deeper, Trying...
Please, Listen.  I know many ones are waiting many different things from me; but I have to say I'm Sorry, cause I'm as Human as any of you, and I Have to Deffend my Rights, cause Dignity is First Source for anything.
I Can't Reach where you trying to bring me, for bad and/or good.
I'm just a philosopher, and a Free Human Being.
I'm going to be on vacation, and I'll be progressively going, beyond All Unjustices (I Mean, NOT for vengeances), cause I Know it's what I Have to Do.  It's a Matter of Sense and Dignity, no matter all selfishness which don't want to listen to this.
I am Pretty Sure I did not fall in sexist violence, but Self-Deffense before the Unknown.  And the fact I'm Strong does not mean I am not human.
I Know I don't need excuses before the lack of compassion and sense, but it's a matter of Doing the Right thing.
Ill be working, philosophical terms.  My books will be free to anybody who may Want to read them.  That's All I can reach.
I Did All I Could, the Best I Could and as Long as I Could.
It's time for some changes for Good.  Evolution to Goodness and Sense.
If the persecution towards me, virtual or not, keeps working around me, I'll handle it, and when I can and have proves enough I'll go to the Police.  
I'll repeat it, I'm Just Wishing Well.
I'm OK, but this path is Key Now.  On the next mont I'll start working again on my doctorate, Fine.
It was Nice to share all those experiences, now it's time for move on, as any other Person Does in Life.
Greetings, God Bless You All!
And Please, tell her that I'll Never stalk her, but that I'll be Friendly if She ever comes to my life for a Kind talk.  And tell that I'll Always Admire and Love her True ( ).
See later, and Please, Stay Strong and Good as Much as You Can, and a Little More if Possible!
Bye, i am Sure the Future is Better than many Ones think today, you'll See

Ps: very Calm about fact this is the Honest thing and that we are going to be OK! True; Trust me

As I said, the going is really Fixed on my Mind.  OK.  It was tough but very formative, these 11 years.
Just wanted to say that I'm mentally quite OK, Really.  The things done don't hurt, cause I Know (since pretty long time ago) the real lack of Sensitive and Human Care upon it all, and I am on the way to forgetting this, almost Easy, cause it is not worth losing time by thinking about it, the origen and the process for it all.
I Know and Feel where the Heart of People is; the "robotized" behaviour does not affect me now (and before, I have to Admit; the World is what it is, and some people... Though, I think the Future is not that bad, True!).
The essay was a Point I Knew I had to Build Up for the Final Overreaching, and I Did it.  And I Actually Believe in Something More.
the "anonymous" doing around keeps going on, and my oblivion for it keeps increasing.  I'm not playing this role anymore, voluntary terms I mean (and we're in a Democratic World, I was told...).
And I'm very sorry if I'm deceiving some of you, but I'm Just a philosopher searching for some sense (not deserving torture for it, s. XXI; I am not asking for the Nobel, but between this and what has happened...) and by it Wishing to bring some help to the society. Normal, Needing Calm and a Private Life.  This, among other things, does mean I Have the Right to Choose my Friends, and to Keep Safe from the things that are nothing as it, but something I Don't Agree with.
Hopefully, I'll be Listened at some point.  It would be Good to All, you can Trust me.
Well, Wishing Well and Goodness True.  
Love, Sense, Freedom, Justice and Peace!
God Bless!

Ps: im very confident about Whats i did, mistakes  and goals.
And i dont mean there are Not people Goodness, and Honestly, about badness, im Not thinking about any specific person.  True, but WhatsApp It was done and still is being done is What It is.  Im Just human.  And Now i Need some Truth, and convencional recognizing too.  Normal, and this Truth im sharing Calm me and Makes me Stronger.
Just Wishing Sense, Justice, Freedom, Peace...True.  i cant build It, Just share some very little help, grain of sand.
PsII: there have been some Good thing.  By instance, chance to have a room at work where i can work alone and focused (Thanks; my debt, for all Good i could do), philoconferences, some professor, some people...
Now im going really clean heart, im Just a human being,límited, with needs, rights, and not so bad person, and asperger and i dont want more experiment on me, Just want to be who i am; and those Good things i mentioned do help all Good i can creaté (essay tremendousj, and those coming too); quite healthy terms!, And not forgetting the rest of my vital constitution (Enjoy the Beauty... ) Really, integrative and Free are Key!  Now going, bye (and please buy my books!!!! )

Hello and Happy New Year!

On the going
Only came to say that it's OK, the public isolation, accusations and all the things (Though I Admit I REally Hope I'll be Recognized for All the Good I Did and I'm Doing, someday: just Normal things, as any other human citizen).
But I'm not coming anymore cause I Can't be involved with these universe of Non Transparent things for any longer.  I mean, persisting on this "alternative life" that some people seem to be very interest in is Impossible.  It would be a Really Bad thing to my opinion and to my Honest feelings and Human Conscience.  True.
It's True I JUST Came for Tribute and for "help" ( ).  It's True that I was offended (family, childhood...) and that I Was Sure I Was Just Deffending mylself and my name.  It's True that at some moment I became at ! (and at self-deffenses, jumping at anything like the bull cheated by the "Torero"). Though it's Also True that I Was Very Tempted at many times too.
And, finally, It's True that I became Honestly Interested in Helping by my posts Here.
But it has no sense now, cause the best I could express was done (beside the bad, for sure) and now it's a mistake to keep working on this covered and fake reality.
Unfair to me, and Unfair to the Good People, and Unfair to any possible Good role model for anything.  I'm so Sure about it.
But, anyway, You have a friend in me, and you know my mail.  Any other thing I could say Should remain under Human Privacy.
Stay tuned at my coming books, where I'll be Really sharing the very best I can build up for Peaceful and Wise Goodness.
Don't worry, I'm taking this easy.
Even if my Family did not need the "money" (sorry for my at my chances on becoming rich by my philosophy or poems ), I'd Do the same thing.
Keep Focused, Respectful and Good.  Best Wishes of Peace!
God Bless!

Last post was erased , mistakes for my poor informatic operativity i guesd
Said Missing hands&Glance is for Always, but today is easier cause Acceptance Learning.
Hope and Moving Forward are Key, but Acceptance frustration is Fundamental.
First years after 2011 were HURTING, i admit, but i Learnt we are Circumstances too.
Phylosophy was a Gift for this.
Hoping to be Meeting again, Gentle and Peace, its my Dream.
Said this for its True and for not worrying bout me.  I Love You, so, so Very Much. My Perfect Dream of Love, my Illussion, my Heaven... my Soul

Greetings. Im saying good-bye now for some Nice period of time to the internet.

Watching TV programa on pig meal Producers.
Animal conditionament are terrible in some case.
Also, hormone and medical (antibiotics) treatments ... Non good idea.
This is worse than Mrs. Peggy letters
Jokes -non innocent, but Well, What could You expxt!- for handling the Feelings.
Vegan or vegetarian id Like to Become.
Healthy.
Human...
The treatment i have felt through the years... Wittgenstein was in Paradise!
God Bless us All!
Focused in Family and in Goodness, and in Working.
Keeping fights here is only Helping the Evil gets larger influence (YouTube has played a máster role for It). Ten years was Enough.
Im sorry, but im Working in&Out very Well (hands and eyes confirmed... Not All do, beyond surface).
I Think i actually have some sympathies, and ill Try to cultivate them by other ways and sources, cause It Will be done purely Honest.
How my goverment Did Not help me and Just Out me in "jail"... I Still cant Believe It. Fortunetely, i Feel some polítical parties may be changing their Feelings about me for good, seeing me beyond All the lies that were spread about me. Ill get Closer to them!
There're No solution here for improving the past ir for better future. Lies, as the Evil we All have done in the past (Well, not so past) are destroying All good i may Try here.
Its a New Life to me!
By instance, yesterday i got deeper into Wittgenstein discourse for the metalogics reflection. Today we had a Great dinner with almost All of the Family (Xisca is un Sweden with her Girls).
No hates, Best Wishing.
God Bless You, Brooke, and your Family. Well Never meet again, and ill Probably Never retiran to USA, for money problems and for very little intelectual social (no logical, im so Proud and Happy) Success i Know ill Achieve.
Please, Remember once my Feelings were so Honest and Pure, Never Violent though Intense. And that ill Always remember You

Today ive seen how near im to a heartattack if things dont change.
For a Big Amount of different things and for the anxiety consequent to them i could see It.
Its tremendous (more) i could do "those things" for  each day of the three days, even with those hating 'paparres" i have talked about for so many times,  Who were sent to disturb my freedom and my Peace and if Possible, destroy me and my future.
Nerves were not only for them, but i Know my actual basic metabolism of nerves is Much higher for these hating ones doing Evil for 6 years.
For not dying too Soon, i have to take more Care.  By instance, forgetting this place and forgetting the giant Sense of betrayal (You Had me!  Why...?) And unjustice.  Its how im Feelings, and i Admit i wouldnt Care Much about die if i had not a Family and i had not a moral task to do.
Among other things, nervous for Wills for finish my essay.  Beyond All the Hate i See against me, i have to do It and share It.
According to All this, ill post it maybe little later, the following week.  Aside this, ill not be coming for good time, for Try to save my Life.  How is It Possible?  Well, the Human Killed so many Human...
Best Wishes to the Human, from the Heart.  True!
Fast Recovering from leg hospital to Brooke.  For Real.
Im Sorry.
Ill be working so hard, and ill be a good human being (Never Trying a God or the demon; funny thing cause im so Far).  And ill Try to live a good life.  If You dont Care for yourself, You cant Care for others, for many sides and reasons.
Greetings.

Piper, a robot on silly radio programa now.  Its not our future.  We going badly if they are considered as our future.  Its not Understanding anything to Think this way.  They can help, as tools, but fantasies are for kid brains.
Human fears unknown, i Know Well; but i Dont Pay attention to robots for primitive fear, but for fear they are not human.  If You put responsabilities on them on contexts not Well and Totally controlled, as long as creators are not God, neither the adaptative Evolution in terms of physical and social-affective interaction.  My Goodness! Killer drones are the top of the exemplied danger, but more things can happen at other levels.
.  Though  Its not extermining human cause the fails Will be Soon enough to Understand this reality before we get a technic development where the fail mean the end as in Terminator.
But those Who lie or say silly things for lack of understanding or for childish scifiction Wills...
Robot is a logic system with NO emotions and NO empathy, and NO Creative symbolism.
Dont Believe their líes/stupidities.
It means human dont Understand human.  This is the real scaring thing.
I have seen It on my own skin.
And if social-working conditions are not in the view of the public Responsibles, for Sure they Will be robbering People Jobs.

Ps: apologises to radio program i talked about, personal negativity of post came from their indirect Jokes on me; but the substance of post is All how im thinking.
I wont do It usually.  Ill post the IX chapter as i promised, but as the spying/stalking/burying of me is Still on, and as i See it as Neverending thing, ill be going Forever from the internet, and keeping aware, Trying to Protector my Life.  And its not worth thing, my Possible sacrifice on this, cause as long as Nobody Cares...
Me developing my duty, anyway.  Think.  And im Sure this Will Never be forgiven (on the XXI!!!!!!!), As my Self-defense on internet or as other things.
But, ill Just and Only write on phylosophic Big questions.  Ill Never get Involved with economic or politic opinions.  For three Main Reasons: chances to be listened, for recognizing my limits (i cant Know All about Everything!), And for my own personal security (its Well known What has been done around my House; my heart-nerves and lungs health... And All she Does is saying on TV ficción and on Benefit Vídeos things that have Nothing in common with this Unjustice=she Does Not Care at All about me -Never i Know- as All the rest). True!
Just Focused in Goodness and Family!

Admiting i Human me is obssesed with the number two, for too Much done on years unfair, posting three (the forum on 2 as number of People here Just confirms to me the large if the soy and stalk conspiración; i knew It by now; so Sad stuff).
I spent more than 12 euros this weekend for a t-shirt (Well in fact was a gift from a "free count" -not mine- with the store for a devolution -good efforts for explaining myself       ) with Einstein on the front.  It means a childish "self-coronation", for What im doing essay (a reconstrucción  of  reason
Able  to  include the Relativity and quantics...).  As long as i Know ill not be recognized -i dont Need it-, its a self-giving      
Just some Game Nice kidding alone that i shared Now; though i Think...    
Vídeos Fashion Clothes are like Family!
   

Ps: why Brooke You let them to do All those things to me?  Cant You see i should break the Core of my Dignity to Accept It all like Nothing?  Im a man, not a piece of sexualized loaf or a piece of trash with no conscience and with no rights.
Nothing is going to change.
Its Very Sad,  like Hell, to me.  But i am keeping myself Strong, even till the price of my own Life.  In Life, there are times when You have to make a stand.  And its not Just my Dignity; to me its affecting all's.  Even Love could Not Survival, if i Did surrender (saying im racist is lie of the Evil, if You Had sent peopple from anywhere doing the same, supported by technologic spy too; id do The Same!).
Dont worry, i wont do any bad thing.
And ill Keep so Focused in my duty.  Tomorrow¡ finishing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Brooke, although this All brutality, You Will Always be in my Heart.
Ill be going for this All, but my Love for You Will Never die.  Dissapointment is too little Word to express the way things Did go to me,  but You Will Always be in my Heart.
On wednesday, post 9th.  Pitty notes cant be in; cause the whole meaning is total.  Book Tremendous, not ego but recommending for good.  Difficult to Believe this last thing, but egocoronated me is now, so the helping interest is the Main one (money too, but i Dont Think...).
And its not necessary to upload any more Beautiful Brooke Vídeos; this post of Mine was the last feed-back. As long as the situation of conspy against me, and supported morally by Brooke, persist; im Gone.
Anyway, posting duty. This weekend, and for some Next time. Dont Know when, cause for ethics ill have to read and Think so before writing.
But, oh my, the epistemologic... Im at It lol
As by your Eternal Beauty, Brooke.
Good-bye!

well, I needed two posts for getting all in the forum. Hope it maybe understood and liked, by translation if necessary. Anyway, i have to insist, notes are so much helping
And as long as I do have to take some trascendence from my own words (and inevitable and objective self-confidence on them ), this is it on

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Mxs-H9aau2s
Adorable, on very candid kind memories! Well...

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xoMgnJDXd3k
Tremendous Movie, and this Scene is to me!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tF_ggG5dY5U
(... from the kicking boot... , and beyond my Respected Byblic references, it's just a Song... , and also beyond my Beloved Arturic Legends, and beyond my Respected "selfish gens" Theory )
To me, this Performance (the whole Video) is a Real Good Brutality!


ps: Dedicated to Brooke!

Good night.

I took a Fast look again to text: some mistakes, but its (ill edit little faults before Send y publish).
I Did Also start New chapter of these Good Administrative Course. Insist so in flexibilty... Good!
Alsi mixed, i Did see virtual mixes of names and Pictures, with the orchestra organized around me as if i had the brain of a kid to manipulate and a Heart no free to make slave of "therapies"...
Im asperger, the flexibilty i may Try, but im Not as any other one at this, though Nobody want to Know (or to Know for experiment/dominating my Soul). I have "different capacities", and Honest empathy means to recognize It.
I have to be Honest: im Sorry to have to say im Never accepting strategies around my Life for years covered.
Instead of taking What i can and i do give (unique!), im still pulled to have to handle this situation...
Me asperger with very Useful brain to society. The insisting for years in disturbing (You could Not Believe what the Sense of nosense and unjustice, continúes, Did to my Hearted Mind; so bad to me!) by no recognizing how i am and Try to change me is a real source for not so Far on time brain-heart infarts me. True.
Flexibility is not an absolute value over human Rights!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This I think I have to say now.  It's NOT cause I think it make somebody think or take care about what I'm saying.  Just cause I have to say it.
For all the Accumulated Circumstances since the 2006, and Only for them (well, about things not related to the "conspiracy", it's very important the Very Continued and Diverse problems of lack of health in my Family, and the accumulated tensión for the economic problems; but this is getting added to all the rest, as also the economic Unjustice towards me), I am on a point when I feel my brain and my heart are pieces of TNT, for real.
The feelings of betrayal, and the feelings of being sourrenderd by evil, bury, stalk, disturb, spy, conspiracy, lie, unjustice, attack, insult, forget, hate, abuse... It's All, put together, too much.
Anyway, more specefic terms, I could talk about: the nonsense and attacks in the internet; the so manipulated "for destroying me" "invitations" to a personal meeting; the "therapists" that came to my life after it; the global feeling of spy, stalk and persecution as if I was some kind of Terrorist; and the deception from the lies and bury  from the people I did trust a little (they named the Word "friends" for some times     ), and followed one way or another, in the world of the phylosophy.
My Only Refugees are my Family, my Working Place (I have had some problems, for my "fame" in the internet mainly, but I'm actually OK) and my Theories.
As long as I see any decisión of mine will be used for manipulating the circumstances of my life (stalk, experiment, lack of rest and calm, bury, spy, disturb...), I see how I'm Totally Unuseful to the society.  Also, I see I'm on a border-line to death (physical and/or social) and that I cant take any transcendental decisión now, excepting getting the Most Closed I can into my Refugees, and go to a profesional, psycologist.
Don't count on me for a pretty long time.
Well, and I have to add, Don't count on me for Never  More, if my Vital Circumsntances keep the same way.
God Bless!

ps: conclusion, nothing new in history. I'll be trying to publish the texts (essay, treatise, investigation: in the lines of the reason I have developed, there's not a total separation among them all, in the traditional context of their definition; to think deep is also to investigate upon your reason in the world, from a metalogic and sensitive-biologic point of view, nothing wrong, Wittgenstein "little" brain Knew it, in the linguistics science) for my Family, not for me or for the supposed -very supposed- usefulness.
And just adding that I'm going to the w.c. in the first floor of the building JUST and ONLY for some intimacy when me "major waters", NOTHING about trying to meet somebody for critics or any other thing angry me. True, Calm, just on the Normal going!

Ah, and about Sheldons fear from Hot "dogs", i Dont like pennises (Well, mine is exceptional...), But i was Never afraid when kid.  Never Did see or Did touch one, and i Never thought about It.
"Fears" from guys liking me, induced by my homophobic father (Rest in Peace, Dad), It was Never that bad.  
Different its my thinking about Connection about human and bonobos, for Real (my brain ASKS to me All imaginable about All for almost 24 hours a day).  I have not a definitive conclusión about bonobos/ximpanzes.
And yes, i Dont Know to process with normality the not so improbable fact another Guy may like me, but What am i able to process with normality!
Sex is Not on my Focus, actually.  But i dare to Know that at very least i Adore the idea of sharing Life with a Loving Woman, as i do.
It was All too Much hypocresy  put together to me, this stuff of kids and "dogs".  Sorry, but i Know.
Good bye. Hasta siempre!

Ps:. Cuéntame... What a Beautiful night to Remember Forever!

Now somebody parked a Mini like one from "The greening...".
As i said, the pulling is Neverending.
Its OK.
I Think i can Drive my Feelings and asfixiate those i talked about yesterday.
I regret to have said those Words. I mean, im Not accepting things, but im overreaching my own bad Feelings at once.
FIXED.
NO looking to eyes of my haters, i Swear, Just going my way. Im TIRED. I Was pulled Far and Far, my Heart, and its Much long time.
I Never thought...
Going. Going Calm but as Far as i Can, my Free Mind, Heart and Soul.
I Cant go back on my feet, but im Not hating.
Life has to Go on!
Far from ideals Most of times; but... Oh, there're times like yesterday's night...
Im done, i can deal with the Necessary Ignoring i have to prove to those Who come to See or stalk the freak me.
Life is Tough, People are cruel so Usually. It has to be OK.
Focused in Goodness, my little cercle of Life.

Im participating with People Wishes for a Dignifying Life even when im Not going to "many social meetings. Everybody Does the Best they can; im a little "special", but Totally Solidary.


PicaSSo: You can ask the directly interested one, and youll see how Shell tell You everything's working Here, though not for All days of the year, Just the Necessary ones
Im too Much Caring, i had a Life as a pain witness (in person and in others...), And this is marking You forever. Everything OK with this TV!
Goodness!