At work again. The last weeks have been Tough, and I Did all the very best I Could.
I am not coming to start again any virtual thing.
Just as long as the last messages were done under some painful mood, for the circumstances of the Mom (and the important grade of anxiety for editing the book on those circumstances), I wanted to properly say Good-bye Better.
but Really.
I know Brooke, and many more ones, thought of me as a Real mad dangerous thing, schizophrenia and so, or simply a bad clown with no importance. And it's not a suspicious thought, evidences on it have been and are Real in my Living.
And this can not be changed. C'est La Vie. This is the Life, and I'll Not be the last missunderstood, by his-herself or, also, for the added fact of being less or more dumb me or direct me.
And it's OK. The Life has to go on.
From this point, from the Too Obvious Fact of Never Getting a direct answer and from the point nothing changed around me for years (I'll go to the telephone company, to officially ask for a certificate upon my cell on being hacked and spied, or not
, and so), I see the Morally Appropriated thing to do is what I'm doing.
I'll be Fine, and Working hard (I'll come to announce, even though I know it will be known, the publishing of the book; I know things like the Care for the Earth -take a look at last IV Milenio TV
- is Needing Much Practic and Urgent Solutions than my insignificant books, but this is my Natural, and from my autism asperger is all I can do).
Please tell Brooke She'll Always be in my Heart.
And that I'm not angry or deceived with her. Circumstances... My Goodness...
For that All, I'll Never try to get physical (or virtual) close to her again, for a simple Matter of Respect, for Her and for Myself; but if one day, in the Future, She ever came to talk to me, I Promise I'd be quite Happy and Friendly Kind. True. She's so Beautiful, the Heart too!
Good-bye, hasta siempre, fins llavors!
ps: the Book is a Good brutality, Difficult but good. Poorly practic, but theorically Tremendous I think. Yes, on campaing, but you know it's How I'm FEELING so True, cause if it was different, I would not say those words; as I did not, by instance, about my Poems (yes, they were less or more good, but the subjectivity...). I'll announce the hopefully final publishing here. Bye Good